The tyrannies over the souls of the dead
History is a tyranny over the souls of the dead – and so the imagination of the living. – William Carlos Williams
Do you have any idea where is this place? Hehe… ;)
I love her but I'm just too shy
10th Grade: As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “bestfriend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that and I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why…
11th Grade: The phone rang. On the other end it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, & 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “Thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Senior Year: The day before prom she walked to my locker. “My date is sick” she said and he’s not gonna come. Well I don’t have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as “bestfriends”. So we did. After everythinq was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her, she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn’t think of me like that and i know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Graduation Day: A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didnt notice me like that, and i knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “You’re my best friend, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
A Few Years Later: Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her saying “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didn’t see me like that and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “You came!”. She said “Thanks!” and kissed me on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Funeral: Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read… “I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I wanna tell him, I want him to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me…”
“I wish I did too…” I thought to myself, and I cried.
P.s: This is a forwarded email sent by Shud. She sent me this email last January and I just finished reading it 5minutes ago. Heheh.. :)
I love her but I'm just too shy
10th Grade: As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “bestfriend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that and I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why…
11th Grade: The phone rang. On the other end it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, & 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “Thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Senior Year: The day before prom she walked to my locker. “My date is sick” she said and he’s not gonna come. Well I don’t have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as “bestfriends”. So we did. After everythinq was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her, she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn’t think of me like that and i know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Graduation Day: A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didnt notice me like that, and i knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “You’re my best friend, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
A Few Years Later: Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her saying “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didn’t see me like that and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “You came!”. She said “Thanks!” and kissed me on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don’t wanna be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Funeral: Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read… “I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I wanna tell him, I want him to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me…”
“I wish I did too…” I thought to myself, and I cried.
P.s: This is a forwarded email sent by Shud. She sent me this email last January and I just finished reading it 5minutes ago. Heheh.. :)
Season of Love
Love… feel love!
Every question
Every answer too
Ever constant
Ever changing you
It’s all memory in the sun
Or it’s all in the darkness
Maybe it’s all around to see
If we try
And maybe it’s been inside of me
All this time
Love love love
Love love love!
Love love love!
Love love love
Love love love!
Love love love!
Crazy with it
Crazier without
Never certain
Never full of doubt
Now you feel it
Now you don’t
Do you know what you’re feeling
Where did it come from and where
Does it go
If it were right in front of me
Would i know
Love love love
Love love love!
Love love love!
Love love love
Love love love!
Love love love!
This is the moment that I’ve been waiting for. The great last episode of Gossip Girl season 2! Making a confession isn’t that hard after all, Chuck Bass… ;)
You can watch the video here.
You know you love me, XOXO. :P
P.s: You MUST listen to the song! ;)
Lame questionnaires may be… ;P
Too much on photography lately, and honestly even me, myself feel kinda boring with my own blog. Hehe. But of course I am not going to shut it down. Because I love NonoWrites.COM so damn much okay! ;)
For the sake of writing something ‘meaningful’…Yeah, well at least something with ‘content’, I would like to answer questionnaires that I got from someone’s blog… So let’s start shall we…? ;)
1. 5 Characteristics of my dream guy:
1. Religious but in a descent way… I don’t want to be with someone who is extremely extreme! Cus it might scares me off. Pardon me with my statement but I really mean it though.
2. Someone who has same interest like me for instance, traveling, photography or beach bumming. So that we can spend our time together to do things that we like.
3. Ambitious, and always plan for the future and work really hard for it in order to get a better life.
4. Caring and loving.
5. Matured and very supportive.
2. 5 Characteristics that I have never like in a guy:
1. Clingy.
2. Liar.
3. Busy body.
4. Overly self-centered.
5. Stalker.
3. 5 feelings that I have when I am out with the one I admire:
1. Happy, happy, happy, happy, and happy! ;P
2. Bliss & bless.
3. Comfortable.
4. Content.
5. Safe. :)
4. 5 places that I want to travel with the loved one:
1. Makkah (for umrah and hajj)
2. Bali
3. Maldives
4. Dubai
5. New Zealand
5. 5 special things that I would give to the loved one:
1. My love, for sure.
2. My life cus I wanna spend the rest of my life with my loved one.
3. Laughter cus I wanna listen to his happy laugh, everyday!
4. Happiness. I wanna make him happy forever…
5. Delicious food. I’ll cook and bake for him! I promise okay… Haha… ;)
Although the questions look easy but it took me quite some times to think for the answer. There were answers that I don’t really sure about it especially question number 4 (except for answer number 1). About going to Bali, Maldives, Dubai and New Zealand, I just typed whatever countries that I have in my mind when the truth is I want to travel to anywhere as long as I am with my loved one. And the rest are true. :)
These questionnaires are just for fun and I am dedicating this to those who are still single and haven’t found the one yet. Let’s share with me about your dream guy/girl, would you? I would love to know about it! ;)
And, I would like to congratulate to those who has found the one. May happiness be yours, always. Urm, just curious… Does he/she really fulfill the criteria of a guy/girl of your dream? Tell me honestly! Hohoho… :) I am so curious…
Lalalala… :D
I fall in love with Girl's D80!
Hello people… ;)
Just wanna share and show to you 3 of my artworks from my portraiture photoshoot session that I had with Girl (as the model) and Hafiz Shah last Tuesday… You can click to the picture to enlarge…
I am using Girl’s D80 to capture her pictures and seriously I am in love with it… :P
Well, actually I am not a DSLR literate. I have little knowledge about DLSR and never really use it. What I mean is that, yes, I used to try to shoot using a DLSR but I never really fully use it. LOL. Okay I don’t think the explanation really help here. But what I can say is that, I am a self-taught. I learned about it from friends and also from the books and internet. I never had any official session to learn about it though…
P.s: My domain will be expired in 4 days and I haven’t renew it. LOL… But I will renew it later… Hehe.
P.s.s: I have update my nonoCAPTURES. Go and check it out.. :P
I fall in love with Girl's D80!
Hello people… ;)
Just wanna share and show to you 3 of my artworks from my portraiture photoshoot session that I had with Girl (as the model) and Hafiz Shah last Tuesday… You can click to the picture to enlarge…
I am using Girl’s D80 to capture her pictures and seriously I am in love with it… :P
Well, actually I am not a DSLR literate. I have little knowledge about DLSR and never really use it. What I mean is that, yes, I used to try to shoot using a DLSR but I never really fully use it. LOL. Okay I don’t think the explanation really help here. But what I can say is that, I am a self-taught. I learned about it from friends and also from the books and internet. I never had any official session to learn about it though…
P.s: My domain will be expired in 4 days and I haven’t renew it. LOL… But I will renew it later… Hehe.
P.s.s: I have update my nonoCAPTURES. Go and check it out.. :P
say cheese…
Picture by Hafiz Shah.
I don’t remember when was the last time I really feel happy and laugh real loud. And honestly I really miss that!
If you want to be happy, be…
I am kind of speechless.
I do not know how to start… When to start to blog… And I don’t even know what to blog!
But I really miss writing here, though.
:)
Hm.
See…
I am stuck already-lah!
Okay-lah… Pardon me for my “lumpy-ness”.
If you are wondering what’s been going on with me for the past two weeks?
Well… Let’s the pictures do the job lah… Since I am running out of words to write here.
Sorry…
Give me time okay :)
Another similar capture of this picture.
More on this silhouette… ;P
Capturing the silhouette of father and son.. ;)
P.s: If you want to be happy, be. – Leo Tolstoy
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